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I've dressed up since I was about six. Always secretively. My older brother and I would raid my mother's lingerie drawer, and he would watch me dress up. I think she eventually caught on. One day, I found a pair of panties in my drawer. I knew what they were, and was too scared to wear them out, so after playing with them for a few days, I put them back in the laundry. I heard the conversation that my parents had when they found it. They had put the panties there as a test, and were disgusted by the results.
I live in the buckle of the bible belt, I never expect to be accepted. Thankfully, my wife does.
Sorry if this is depressing.
Wife? CD interest since the age of six? From reading the fist paragraph my first thought was "TS". Sorry i guess I can't understand, I expect usually childhood interest would mean gender disphoria.
I've been TS all my life, just very suppressive since my biggest fear is being alone :(.
OP here.I probably would be TS if I lived in a different area, or if my parents would accept the idea. I'm pretty firmly bi, but I'm way to scared to act on it. A wife with a strapon goes a long way to fulfill some of my desires safely. She likes it as well.
I can semi-relate to op. I crossdress a bit and fantacise about being a woman. However, I consider myself straight.
The thought of being what I am attracted too is what does it for me. It would be like the ultimate control over a girl, except I wouldn't have a dick if it happened. Im pretty sure I'd miss my dick if I turned into a girl. The fantasy is better than it actually happening.
Oh yeah. There is a lack of women in my life and just something about making myself look like one that I can't put my finger on. On one hand crossdressing is always linked to sex but on the other I've been doing it since I was four or five - ten years before puberty. Go figure.
>>37 Can't really blame you totally, but this really is depressing. You are wasting your life, i hope you understand that? Go, move out of that area, live your life like YOU want to live it, no sorry excuses (a girl with strapon, comeon!) anymore, go find a guy, and if you really want to do a full TS do it. If not, that's fine either, but go find someone that you can REALLY love.tldr: F*** your old home. Find true love, live in freedom.
And yes, i am talking out of experience here, it is hard but you can do it. I tried to kill myself twice because i tried to live like you do. No more!
I can tell you one thing: This new life now is WORTH all the trouble. Because of one thing: REAL love!
Love isn't just about sex. I can love pretty much anybody. Whether or not that's "true" is up to me aloen.
>>116 "Whether or not that's "true" is up to me aloen." See what i mean? Your answer indicates that you know yourself that it isn't the real deal.
And yes, love is not about sex only. But why skip one of them if you can have both?
As i said, i can't really blame you, i was exactly like you, trying to hide, trying to live with the lie, trying to ignore that i was not really living but only an idea of somebody else.
After the last failed suicide attempt i swore myself:I gonna live my life, i got nothing to lose anymore.
It wasn't easy, there were many obstacles, but looking back i can say: Now i have a life. If i had only fought earlier... all those wasted years! And because of what? Only because i thought i had to obey some artificial patterns and ideas. Made by some hateful, ignorant and dumb people.
Just ask yourself: Is my life worth being lived as it is? If not: Change it. You only have this one chance to get it right.
Ok i had the extreme luck of having 2 chances, but don't count on it. O.O
So I'm sorta new here, been lurking for months but never posting... I would just like to hear what u guys think about my current state of mind. So, whenever I see a really really hot girl the first thought that goes through my mind isn't "OMG I wanna be in her so bad right now" it's more along the lines of "I would kill for those fucking shoes!" does that make me kinda gay? See, i don't really have feelings for any girls, infact I despise most of them for having vags :DBut at the same time I don't really like guys either. It's only when I see a guy that is really fem I would start to slumber around and get hot and think "Oh god why do I want to hold him" What is your guys take on this?
Nothing wrong with that. You are what you are. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
Personally, for me, I would want to be inside that hot girl, then steal her cute shoes the next morning. :3
>>37 That pic reminds me of a t-shirt I have had for a long time... it's pink, sort of glitter-y, and says "All I Want is Everything..."
>>121As kagami said, you are who you are. If identifying yourself as a homosexual makes you feel uncomfortable, then feel free to consider yourself in a stage of "exploring." (Whether or not this phase of your sexual life lasts a few, or severla years... is up to you.)
>>122Hahaha i totally agree with thatunfortunately girls shoes wont fit me :(kinda have big feet
>>121 when I see a hot girl I'm never sure whether I want to be with her or want to be her
>>132Do a google search for "International Shoe Size Conversion Chart" and select the first result... it might help you in your quest for finding adequately sized shoes...
its so strange, how some christians have become the direct opposite of the original christians
the true/first christians would have totally accepted and loved you no matter what
you just shine on baby, love is true power
and we are very sexual beings, really, earth is an infinitely sexual planet
pic related, someone I love !
1) Your wife sounds awesome. I would recommend not leaving her, no matter what you decide to do.
2) Also from the Bible Belt (Atlanta suburbs), and raised in an extreme church. Seriously, they should make a reality TV show about it. And while I never dressed until I was 18, some of my earliest memories are pretending to be a girl. It gave me a boner when I was pre-K.
3) In my experience, switching between male and female roles is aided by staying fit, but neglecting strength training of any kind, except ab exercises. Keep your stomach flat and your arms and legs thin. That's great advice if even if one takes hormones, but for those not on magic pills, it's essential.
4) The second part isn't really advice, just encouragement. There are more of us here. Culture may affect the our openness, but it is powerless over the biology that creates us.
gorgeous photo. just shows how these things can turn out.
I was always most interested in gathering first-hand experience from other roles. Those roles can be anything: teacher / student, giver / reciever, power / less power, knowledge / ignorance.
I think it's best to know how it feels for both sides, in order to be accurate in all your thoughts and actions.
(And, as always, the guiding principle is The Golden Rule)
That's not a mtf cd or even a transgendered male, it's a female. Just an fyi, it isn't the poster.
Really? Who is it then? I've never seen this person before.
It's either faux or cracky, I can't remember.
>>381 it's neither. dipshit.
>I probably would be TS if I lived in a different area, or if my parents would accept the idea.
being TS doesn't work that way, you either are or aren't it has nothing to do with what other people think.