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I usually try to avoid the issue that I'm not comfortable in my own skin. In fact, I try to avoid the fact that I'd rather look/feel/ and be treated like a girl, because unfortunately I'm the type of person that doesn't respect themselves enough to even be in shape. Though that doesn't stop me from putting a bra on and just pretending, it's just not the same.
I think I'm at a point in my life where if I wanted to change I still could. I've always had pretty low testosterone levels so I'm kind of err, undeveloped. I think that if I really tried, maybe tried hormone therapy, I could reach what I really would like to be.
But I've got to ask the rest of you, is it really worth all the trouble? Growing up around my sister, seeing the inconveniences in makeup and what not, I kind of wind up asking myself if maybe I'd be getting into too much than I'd really want out of it.
Make any sense?
...kind of sounds like you want do whatever is easiest.
i like to think I know how you feel, I've burried my feelings about such things in piles of denial over the last 27 years.
I am hairy, Broad shouldered, and I do a lot of theater. So my sissyness always looses out on the thought that it isn't worth it.
After shaving every hair on my body, exercising to loose weight, and corsetting my belly away and doing my hair and putting on make-up just to reach this ideal of femininaty I have imprinted on my psyche just doesn't seem worth it at the end of the day.
And If I did all of the Hormones and had the surgeries to further appease this ideal, I don't think i would ever get cast in another play ever again because the theater world sadly is a really shallow place.
So I remain male. Live life as a male. And Fantasize. Unlike most of the folks I've met I am comfertable in my masculinity. I enjoy the duality of being able to go back and forth. Sure i can never reach that ideal in my head that I long for, but i get by on my late night cross dress fests...
I don't know if that helps you, atleast know that your not alone, I only hope that the Gender Movement can take on the hippy feminine ideal and so we can see lots of lovely hippy M2f who don't have to worry about shaving their leggs or armpits... or chests... or balls for that matter!