Cross Dressing & Trapping

I just wanted to ask this question here,as this community seems pretty familiar with this sort of thing. About a year ago i started dressing up in panties and stuff,putting stuff up my ass and all that. I really felt that i envy girls and wanted to look more feminine. After informing myself of various options i decided full on-trap wasnt for me. i didnt have the guts for that. So i started taking small doses of this herbal stuff called phytosoya,i had my hands on some real estrogen a while ago but couldnt go through with that. I was wondering if anyone here has had experience with this Phytosoya stuff and if it actually works. I have seen some small results but nothing drastic. Should i change to something else or use higher doses?